A Woman Should Have………

This, I found, on Facebook and it’s something all women should read and consider.


A woman should have…..

Enough money within her control to move out…

And rent a place of her own

even if she never wants to

or needs to…

Something perfect to wear if the employer

or date of her dreams wants to See Her in an hour….


A woman should have

A youth she’s content to leave behind…

A past juicy enough that she’s looking forward to

retelling it in her Old Age….


A woman should have….

A set of screwdrivers,

a cordless drill, and a black lace bra…

One friend who always makes her laugh…

And one Who lets her cry…


A woman should have….

A good piece of furniture not previously owned

by anyone else in her family….

Eight matching plates,

wine glasses with stems,

And a recipe for a meal that will make

her guests feel honored…

A feeling of control over her destiny….


Every woman should know….

How to fall in love without losing herself…

How to quit a job,

Break up with a lover,

And confront a friend without

Ruining the friendship….

When to try harder…

And when to walk away


Every woman should know

That she can’t change the length of her calves,

The width of her hips,

or the nature of her parents…

That her childhood may not have been perfect…

But it’s over…


Every woman should know….

What she would and wouldn’t do for love or more….

How to live alone…

Even if she doesn’t like it…


Every woman should know

Whom she can trust…

Whom she can’t….

And why she shouldn’t take it personally…


Every woman should know….

Where to go….

Be it to her best friend’s kitchen table….

Or a charming inn in the woods….

When her soul needs soothing…..


Every woman should know…..

What she can and can’t accomplish in a day…..

A month….

And a year…..



Written by Pamela Redmond Satran

I (Still) Believe in Love

This is an article one of the people I work with wrote after the ending of a significant relationship.



“Last week my therapist told me that I see things, life, through rose-tinted glasses.  He meant this as a cautionary statement, but I couldn’t agree with him that this was a bad thing; I couldn’t agree with him that I needed to get angry instead of sad.

I think this is because I choose to see the good in things.  To me, it takes too much work to focus on the negative.  When I do I feel myself being dragged down, falling down the spiral of negative thoughts, negative feelings that swirl around you when that’s what you focus on.  So I choose to step out of that vortex (when I can) and focus on the good, to find the positive in each day, maybe even each moment.

For a year I have had this pit of emptiness, the sting of tears, and the hollowness in my heart that I have had to struggle with.  For a year, I have had to face the fact that we don’t always get the fairy tale ending, or even the ending we had planned for ourselves.  Instead, I’ve had to face a new reality that sometimes the prince doesn’t choose happily ever after with the princess, but instead will run away with the tavern wench.  So what does the princess do in that moment?  Does she wait for the so-called prince to come back?  Well, maybe at first, yes.  But when the reality of it sets in, that princess needs to learn that she doesn’t need the prince any longer even if there are times she still wants him to come riding back on that horse.

But what princess wants the frog (or is it snake) who left her in the first place?

So I choose to face reality with my rose-tinted glasses even as I face this life ahead of me.  But despite those glasses, I know that things are not always going to be easy.  Despite the glasses, I know that there are those I have to build my defenses up against in order to protect myself.  Despite the glasses, I know that I have to do things for myself.

However, despite the reality that I now face, I still believe in the prince who loves the princess – except this time she won’t’ be sitting around waiting for him to come rescue her.  I believe in love as romantic as the story books; I believe in the small simple gestures that speak so much louder than any of the words that could be said.  I believe that despite the pain, there is hope and happiness in my future.  I believe that the sting of the tears waiting to fall in despair will be replaced by the tears that fall from laughter.  I believe that the emptiness in my heart will be filled with a happiness and a joy that is beyond words.

But until that day, this princess will not be locked in some tower waiting for someone to let her out.  Instead, I will embrace the moments as they come, I will choose adventure until I am swept off my feet by the prince who chooses the princess.”


This is an email I received recently from a young woman asking for help with perfectionism.



Dear Mr. Esselman,

I’m 13 years old and experiencing signs of being a perfectionist. I got interested in this topic because I always catch myself getting extremely mad and aggressive with myself. At first I thought it was anxiety because I would get extremely frantic and I would worry. I did not know how to control the feelings so I would yell at myself and get myself in a bad mental state. I was looking at all the signs of being a perfectionist and I came to meet every single one of them. I was wondering how I could calm down when I rage at myself and how I can control the feelings.



Dear XXX,

I found your letter very interesting. When I was about 13, I too began struggling with perfectionism. Unlike you, I did not reach out for help. So, I applaud your courage to ask for assistance and your commitment or investment in yourself.

If getting mad at yourself has not helped, stop doing it! Getting angry can feel like we are really doing something to change but since it has not helped, it is just an illusion.

Try to accept the fact that no one can be perfect. You probably are good at some things and bad at others. I good at am some things and bad at others but NO ONE is perfect at anything or everything!

I think the drive to be perfect comes from: 1. Parents and teachers encouraging us to always “do our best” and that gets taken too far, 2. Our own desires to please either others or ourselves, especially when it comes to grades or projects, and that also gets taken too far, 3. Being overwhelmed by the expectations we feel in our lives and most importantly, 4. Incorrect beliefs about making mistakes.

People fear that if they don’t expect themselves to be perfect, they will stop trying at everything. This is usually why parents and teachers urge us to always “Do your best!” This belief is false. When we stop expecting ourselves to be perfect at everything, we free ourselves up to decide how much we want to try at doing something. This can be hard to do because, as an adolescent, you are just beginning to develop the skills you will use in your adult life and you don’t know what your innate skills/abilities/talents are…..so teachers and parents tell you to do your best at everything. Also, sometimes you have to work really hard in the beginning when learning something new. Later on, once you have learned more about the subject, it then comes more naturally and you excel in the area.

People usually feel making mistakes is bad. But, in truth, MOST LEARNING is based on making mistakes/learning from those mistakes. When we beat ourselves up after making a mistakes, we are so flooded with shame or guilt, we lose the opportunity to figure how why or how we made the mistake and learn from it.

Back to your question about how to you calm down when you are angry at yourself. I’d suggest first you try to decide which things in your life you want to excel at and the things you want to do “just good enough”. Second, change your wording. Eliminate “perfect” from your vocabulary and substitute words that reflect your desire to excel or do “good enough”. Third, talk to someone who will encourage you in this. This will be a big change for you in your life and you will need help. I did.

Did that answer your question? I am happy to email more about this topic but ask that you tell your parents about our conversation and show them our emails.




12 Tough Truths about Life No One Wants to Admit

  1. There is a lot about our lives we absolutely cannot control.

We cannot control everything that happens in life, but you can control how you respond.  Your response is your greatest power.


  1. Our expectations often make us utterly unhappy.

Happiness is letting go of what you assume your life is supposed to be like right now and sincerely appreciating it for everything that it is.


  1. We will always be incredibly imperfect.

If you wait until you’re “perfect” before you share your stories, ideas, talents, and gifts with the world, no one will ever hear from you.


  1. A moment spent worrying is a moment wasted.

Worrying will never change the outcome.  Do more, worry less.  Train your mind to see the lesson in every situation and then make the best of it.


  1. The best lessons often come from the hardest days.

Stand strong.  Sometimes you have to experience a low point in life to learn a good lesson you couldn’t have learned any other way.


  1. Success easily gets to our heads and failure easily gets to our hearts.

Our character is often revealed at our highs and lows.  Be humble at the mountain tops.  Be steadfast in the valleys.  Be faithful in-between.


  1. We confuse being busy with being productive.

What you pay attention to grows.  So focus on what truly matters and let go of what does not.


  1. More money left unmanaged just creates more problems.

Yes, we need money to live.  Earn it.  Save it.  Invest it.  But avoid spending money you haven’t earned, to buy things you don’t need, to impress folks you don’t even know.  Manage your money so it doesn’t end up managing you.


  1. Most of us don’t need more to be happy – we need less.

When things aren’t adding up in your life, begin subtracting.  Life get a lot simpler when you clear the clutter (mental and physical) that makes it complicated.


  1. Our fancy gadgets often get in our way and dehumanize us.

We all need to learn to be human again.  Don’t avoid eye contact.  Don’t hid behind gadgets.  Smile often.  Ask about people’s stories.  Listen.


  1. We don’t always get what we give.

You will end up sadly disappointed if you expect people will always do for you as you do for them.  Not everyone has the same heart as you.


  1. Most of the arguments we have with one another are pointless.

Be selective in your battles.  Oftentimes, peace is better than being right.  You simply don’t need to attend every argument you’re invited to.



Two more points…… (My own)………


  1. People are frequently disappointed with sex and love, yet it is such a central part of our lives.


  1. Happiness cannot be obtained directly. It is the result of doing what you are supposed to do, often when people are not looking.



Different Types

Over the years, I have attended many workshops on Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD) and Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder (ADHD). The following is a compilation of different questionnaires and handouts on ADD/ADHD I have collected. Much of the following is from Dr. Daniel Amen and his experiences treating ADD/ADHD.




Daniel Amen



Differential Diagnosis                                                        page 2

(What else could it be?)


ADD with Hyperactivity                                                    page 3

“Classic”  ADHD

Prefrontal Cortex


ADD without Hyperactivity                                              page 4

“Couch Potato”

Prefrontal Cortex


ADD Over-focused Type                                                    page 5

“Stuck” Type

Cingulate System


ADD Depressive-Type                                                        page 6

“Negative/Dark” Type

Limbic System


ADD Explosive Type                                                           page 7

“Angry” Type

Temporal Lobe


Typical Problems with Each Type                                   page 8


Suggestions to try for each type                                      page 9


Right Brain/Left Brain ADD Characteristics                page 10&11


Right Brain/Left Brain ADD Questionnaire                  page 12


Right Brain/Left Brain ADD Scoring Sheet                   page 13



ADD/ADHD Differential Diagnosis

What else could it be?



Psychiatric Conditions:                                               Environmental:

Language and Learning Disability                                Unsafe/Disruptive Learning Environment

Bipolar Disorder                                                                  School Curriculum/Child Mismatched

Tourette’s Syndrome                                                          Family Dysfunction

Oppositional Defiant Disorder                                         Poor Parenting

Conduct Disorder                                                                Child Abuse/Neglect

Major Depression                                                                Food Allergies

Anxiety Disorders                                                               Environmental Allergies

Pervasive Developmental Disorder                                Teacher/Child Personality Clash

Auditory Processing Disorder


Autism or Asperger’s


Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

Mild Mental Retardation

Head Injuries or Brain Trauma

Drug Abuse



Low Self Esteem

Poor Social Skills







General Medical Conditions:


Severe Anemia

Lead/Mercury/Heavy Metal Exposure or Poisoning

Chronic Illness

Hearing/Vision Impairment

Fetal Alcohol Syndrome


Neurologic Conditions:

Sleep Disorders

Seizure Disorders








Attention Deficit Disorder with Hyperactivity

“Classic” ADHD

(Pre-Frontal Cortex Area of the Brain)



Either (1) or (2)


  1. Six (or more) of the following symptoms of inattention have persisted for at least six months to a degree that is maladaptive and inconsistent with developmental level:




____ 1.  Often fails to give close attention to details or makes careless mistakes in schoolwork,                  work, or other activities

____ 2.  Often has difficulty sustaining attention in tasks or play activities                                                    ____ 3.  Often does not seem to listen when spoken to directly

____ 4.  Often does not follow through on instructions and fails to finish schoolwork, chores, or                     duties in the workplace (not due to oppositional behavior or failure to understand                             instructions)

____ 5.  Often has difficulty organizing tasks and activities

____ 6.  Often avoids, dislikes, or is reluctant to engage in tasks that require sustained mental                         effort (such as schoolwork or homework)

____ 7.  Often loses things necessary for tasks or activities (e.g., toys, school assignments,                                       pencils, books, or tools)

____ 8.  Is often easily distracted by extraneous stimuli

____ 9.  Is often forgetful in daily activities



  1. Six (or more) of the following symptoms of hyperactivity-impulsivity have persisted for at least six months to a degree that is maladaptive and inconsistent with developmental level:




____ 1.  Often fidgets with hands or feet or squirms in seat

____ 2.  Often leaves seat in classroom or in other situations in which remaining seated is                                       expected

____ 3.  Often runs about or climbs excessively in situations in which it is inappropriate                                       (in adolescents or adults, may be limited to subjective feelings of restlessness)

____ 4.  Often has difficulty playing or engaging in leisure activities quietly

____ 5.  Is often “on the go” or often acts as if “driven by a motor”

____ 6.  Often talks excessively




____ 7.  Often blurts out answers before questions have been completed

____ 8.  Often has difficulty awaiting turn

____ 9.  Often interrupts or intrudes on others (e.g., butts into conversations or games)



Attention Deficit Disorder without Hyperactivity

“Couch Potato”

(Pre-frontal Cortex Area of the Brain)



Six (or more) of the following symptoms are indicative of ADD without hyperactivity.


____ 1.  Difficulty with sustained attention or erratic attention span

____ 2.  Easily distracted by extraneous stimuli

____ 3.  Excessive daydreaming

____ 4.  Disorganized

____ 5.  Responds impulsively or without thinking

____ 6.  Problems completing things

____ 7.  Doesn’t seem to listen

____ 8.  Shifts from one uncompleted activity to another

____ 9.  Often complains of being bored

____ 10.  Often appears to be apathetic or unmotivated

____ 11.  Frequently sluggish or slow moving

____ 12.  Frequently spacey or internally preoccupied



The onset of these symptoms often become apparent later in childhood or even adolescence.  The brighter the individual, the later symptoms seem to become a problem.  The symptoms must be present for at least six months and not be related to a depressive episode.  The severity of the disorder is rated as mild, moderate, or severe.


Even though these children have many of the same symptoms of the people with ADHD, they are not hyperactive and may, in fact, be hypoactive.  Girls are frequently missed because they are more likely to have this type of ADD.  In addition, they may: daydream excessively, complain of being bored, appear apathetic or unmotivated, appear frequently sluggish or slow moving or appear spacey or internally preoccupied – the classic “couch potato.”  Most people with this form of ADD are never diagnosed.  They do not exhibit enough symptoms that “grate” on the environment to cause people to seek help for them.  Yet, they often experience severe disability from the disorder.  Instead of help, they get labeled as willful, uninterested, or defiant.


As with the ADHD subtype, brain studies in patients with ADD, inattentive subtype reveal a decrease in brain activity in the frontal lobes of the brain in response to an intellectual challenge.  Again, it seems that the harder these people try to concentrate, the worse it gets.  ADD, inattentive subtype is often very responsive to stimulant medications listed above, at a percentage somewhat less than the ADHD patients.











ADD Over-Focused Type

“Stuck” Type

(Cingulate Area of the Brain)



Six (or more) of the following symptoms are indicative of ADD over-focused (1 and 2 are needed to make the diagnosis.


____ 1.  Difficulty with sustained attention or erratic attention span

____ 2.  Easily distracted by extraneous stimuli

____ 3.  Excessive or senseless worrying

____ 4.  Disorganized or super-organized

____ 5.  Oppositional, argumentative

____ 6.  Strong tendency to get locked into negative thoughts, having repetitive thoughts

____ 7.  Tendency toward compulsive behavior

____ 8.  Intense dislike for change

____ 9.  Tendency to hold grudges

____ 10.  Trouble shifting attention from subject to subject

____ 11.  Difficulties seeing options in situations

____ 12.  Tendency to hold on to own opinion and not listen to others

____ 13.  Tendency to get locked into a course of action, whether or not it is good for the person

____ 14.  Needing to have things done a certain way or you become very upset

____ 15.  Others complain that you worry too much



People with ADD, over-focused subtype, tend to get locked into things and they have trouble shifting their attention from thought to thought.


This subtype has a very specific brain patter, showing increased blood flow in the top, middle portion of the frontal lobes.  This is the part of the brain that allows you to shift your attention from thing to thing.  When this part of the brain is working too hard, people have trouble shifting their attention and end up “stuck” on thoughts or behaviors.


This brain pattern may present itself differently among family members.  For example, a mother or father with ADD over-focused subtype may experience trouble focusing along with obsessive thoughts (repetitive negative thoughts) or have compulsive behaviors (hand washing, checking, counting, etc.), the son or daughter may be oppositional (get stuck on saying no, no way, never, you can’t make me do it), another family member may find change very hard for them.


This pattern is often very responsive to new “anti-obsessive antidepressants,” which increase the neurotransmitter serotonin in the brain.  I have nicknamed these medications as my “anti-stuck medications.”  These medications include Prozac, Pail, Zoloft, Anafranil, and Effexor.










ADD Depressive Type

“Depressed” Type

(Limbic Area of the Brain)



Six (or more) of the following symptoms are indicative of ADD depressive subtype (1 and 2 are needed to make the diagnosis).


____ 1.  Difficulty with sustained attention or erratic attention span

____ 2.  Easily distracted by extraneous stimuli

____ 3.  Moodiness

____ 4.  Negativity

____ 5.  Low energy

____ 6.  Irritability

____ 7.  Social isolation

____ 8.  Hopelessness, helplessness, excessive guilt

____ 9.  Disorganization

____ 10.  Lowered interest in things that are usually considered fun

____ 11.  Sleep changes (too much or too little)

____ 12.  Forgetfulness

____ 13.  Chronic low self-esteem



It is very important to differentiate this subtype of ADD from clinical depression.  This is best done by evaluating the symptoms over time.  ADD, depressive subtype, is consistent over time and there must have been evidence from childhood and adolescence.  It does not just show up at the age of 35 when someone is going through serious stress in life.  It must be a pattern of behavior over time.  Major depressive disorders tend to cycle.  There are periods of normalcy which alternate with periods of depression.


The medications used for ADD, depressive subtype, include standard antidepressants, such as Tofranil (imipramine), Norpramin (desipramine), and Pamelor (nortryptiline), the newer antidepressants such as Prozac and Wellbutrin (buprion), and the stimulants.  Clinically, I have been very impressed with the ability of stimulants to help this subtype of ADD.  This is why it is very important to differentiate this subtype from primary depressive disorders.















ADD Explosive Type

“Angry” Type

(Temporal Lobe Area of the Brain)



Six (or more) of the following symptoms are indicative of ADD violent, explosive (1 and 2 are needed to make the diagnosis.


____ 1.  Difficulty with sustained attention or erratic attention span

____ 2.  Easily distracted by extraneous stimuli

____ 3.  Impulse control problems

____ 4.  Short fuse or periods of extreme irritability

____ 5.  Periods of rage with little provocation

____ 6.  Often misinterprets comments as negative when they are not

____ 7.  Irritability builds, then explodes, then recedes, often tired after a rage

____ 8.  Periods of spaciness or confusion

____ 9.  Periods of panic or fear for no specific reason

____ 10.  Visual changes, such as seeing shadows or objects changing shape

____ 11.  Frequent periods of deja vu (feelings of being somewhere before even though you

never have)

____ 12.  Sensitivity or mild paranoia

____ 13.  History of a head injury or family history of violence or explosiveness

____ 14.  Dark thoughts, may involve suicidal or homicidal thoughts

____ 15.  Periods of forgetfulness or memory problems



In my clinical experience, temporal lobe symptoms are found in approximately 10-15% of patients with ADD.  Temporal lobe symptoms can be among the most painful.  These include periods of panic or fear for no specific reason, periods of spaciness or confusion, dark thoughts (such as suicidal or homicidal thoughts), significant social withdrawal, frequent periods of deja vu, irritability, rages, and visual changes (such as things getting bigger or smaller than they really are).  Temporal lobe dysfunction may be inherited or it may be caused by some sort of brain trauma.


Temporal lobe symptoms associated with ADD are often very responsive to anti-seizure medication, such as Tegretol or Depakote.
















Typical Problems with Each Type

ADD With and Without Hyperactivity

The Pre-Frontal Area of the Brain


Area of the Brain Affected                        Typical Problem

Focus                                                                           Short attention span

Attention span                                                             Distractibility

Judgment                                                                     Impulsivity

Impulse control                                                            Procrastination

Organization                                                                Poor organization and planning

Planning                                                                      Lying

Critical thinking                                                           Misperceptions

Forward thinking                                                         Poor judgment

Internal supervision                                                     Social and/or test anxiety

Unavailability of emotions


ADD Over-Focused Type

The Cingulate Area of the Brain


Area of the Brain Affected                              Typical Problems

Allows shifting of attention                                           Worrying

Helps the mind move from idea to idea                                    Holds onto hurts from the past

Gives the ability to see options                                     Becoming stuck on thoughts-(obsessions)

Cognitive flexibility                                                      Becoming stuck on behaviors-(compulsions)

Helps you go with the flow                                           Argumentativeness

Oppositional behavior

Addictive behaviors

(alcohol abuse, eating disorders, chronic pain)


ADD With Depression

The Limbic Area of the Brain


Area of the Brain Affected                             Typical Problems

Sets the emotional tone of the mind                             Moodiness, irritability, clinical depression

Stores highly charged emotional memories                  Increased negative thinking

Modulates motivation                                                   Perceive events in a negative way

Controls appetite and sleep cycles                                Decreased motivation

Promotes bonding                                                        Flood of negative emotions

Directly processes the sense of smell                            Appetite and sleep problems

Modulates libido                                                           Social isolation

Decreased or increased sexual responsiveness


ADD Explosive Type

The Temporal Area of the Brain


Area of the Brain Affected                              Typical Problems

Abnormal perceptions

Understanding and processing language                      Hallucinations

Short term memory                                                     Amnesia

Long term memory                                                      Feelings of déjà vu

Auditory learning                                                         Ja mais vu

Complex memories                                                      Periods of panic or fear for little reason

Visual and auditory images                                          Periods of spaciness or confusion

Excessive religiosity

Visual distortions

Rage outbursts



Suggestions to Try for Each Type


ADD/ADHD Type Suggestions:

Rx #1:  Clear focus on how you want to live

Rx #2:  Focus on the penguins in your life, notice the behavior of others you like (Fat Freddy)

Rx #3:  Have meaning, purpose, stimulation, and excitement in your life to prevent shut down

Rx #4:  Medications include stimulants, such as Ritalin, Cylert, Adderall, Desoxyn, or Dexedrine



ADD Over-Focused Type Suggestions:

Rx #1:  Notice when you’re stuck, distract yourself and come back to the problem later

Rx #2:  Don’t try to convince someone else who is stuck, take a break and come back to them later

Rx #3:  Write out options and solutions when you feel stuck

Rx #4:  Seek the counsel of others when you feel stuck (often just talking about feeling stuck will

Open new options for you)

Rx #5:  Medications include Prozac, Paxil, Zoloft, Effexor, Anafranil, Luvox, Serzone



ADD Depressive Type Suggestions:

Rx #1:  Every thought matters!  Kill the ANTs in your mind

Rx #2:  The limbic system is involved with bonding, surround yourself with people who provide

Positive bonding

Rx #3:  Great smells

Rx #4:  Medications include Norpramin, Tofranil, Wellbutrin, and other anti-depressants



ADD Explosive Type Suggestions:

Rx #1:  Strive for wonderful experiences

Rx #2:  Improve your ability to use words

Rx #3:  Sing whenever/wherever you can

Rx #4:  Listen to a lot of music

Rx #5:  Move in rhythms

Rx #6:  Medications include Depakote, Tegretol, Neurontin, Dilantin, and other anti-convulsants



















Right Brain/Left Brain ADD Questionnaire


  1. Are you better at remembering faces than names?


  1. When you’re presented with a toy or piece of furniture to assemble, are you likely to discard the printed directions and figure out how to build it yourself?


  1. Are you better at thinking of ideas if you’re left alone to concentrate, rather than working with a group?


  1. Do you rely mostly on pictures to remember things, as opposed to names and words?


  1. Do you have especially acute hearing?


  1. Do you cut the labels out of clothes? Do you favor garments that are especially soft and well worn, finding most clothing too rough or scratchy?


  1. Do you tend to put yourself down a lot?


  1. When you’re asked to spell a word, do you “see” it in your head rather than sound it out phonetically?


  1. When you’re studying a subject, do you prefer to get the “big picture” as opposed to learning a lot of facts?


  1. Are you good with puzzles and mazes?


  1. Can you imagine things well in three dimensions? In other words, can you visualize a cube in your mind, rotate it, and view it from every angle without difficulty?


  1. Were you considered a late bloomer?


  1. Did you need to like your teacher to do well in his/her class?


  1. Are you easily distracted to the point that you find yourself day-dreaming a lot?


  1. Are you a perfectionist to the point that it gets in the way of trying new things?


  1. Are you ultra-competitive, hating to lose more than most people do?


  1. Are you good at figuring people out? Do others tell you that you’re good at “reading” people?


  1. Is your handwriting below average or poor?


  1. Were you a late walker, or have other delayed motor skills as a child?


  1. When you’re in a new place, do you tend to find your way around easily? 12


Right Brain/Left Brain ADD Questionnaire


Scoring Page



The more yes responses you have, the more to the right you or your child will be on my left-right brain continuum.


In general:

0-4   yes answers indicate you’re very left-brained

5-8   yes answers indicate you’re somewhat left-brained

9-12  yes answers indicate you’re whole brained

13-16  yes answers indicate you’re somewhat right-brained

17-20  yes answers indicate you’re very right-brained


Again, while this is not a scientific test, it will give you a general understanding of your brain dominance.



Note:  If you’re working with a preschooler or kindergartener who doesn’t yet have full letter recognition, you can use the following exercise to give you an early indication of his/her brain dominance.  This is a fun activity and can give you a clue as to how right-brained and visual your little one really is.



Activity:  On a piece of plain white paper, draw seven circles of approximately the same size in a straight line across the page.  Randomly use three or four different colored markers or crayons so that the sequence might be:  green, blue, red, red, yellow, green, yellow.  Instruct your child to study the circles for at least twenty seconds, until he/she feels confident he can remember them.


Remove the paper and ask your child to name the colors from left to right, and then right to left.  The results may surprise you!  Most children with ADD will be able to do this by hyper-focusing and using their visual memory.  Notice whether your child closes his eyes or looks upward, and indication that he/she is getting a picture of those colored circles in his/her mind.















Right Brain ADD/ADHD Characteristics



Learns better when moving


Stress ball, different textures on desk


Quiet place for learning


Relevant, hands on, interactive, practical learning


Show the child the end picture – fill in the pictures


Reading – Scan – get ending – fill in the pictures


Make a picture in his/her head, then create


Color, pictures movies and cartoon to fill in the story


“Touch math” – money counting, using beads, abacus


Can you see what I am saying?


Are you getting the picture?


Let me show you what I mean?


Problem solving – picture books


Paying attention – sequence of pictures on desk




















Left Brain ADD/ADHD Characteristics



Sequential and logical, analytical and reliable


Uncomfortable with change


Live in an auditory world – storage in words


Routines and rules


They have to hear things to learn them – Laugh and Learn


Literal interpretation of world


Need step by step instructions


Must run through everything verbally to make sense


Talk to themselves as they take notes


Look away during lessons to process


Oral tests, report giving, lessons audio taped (for later listening)


Jingles, songs, poems


Big projects into small steps


Tell me about it?  Can you hear that?


Problem solving – storybooks to solve a problem


Tell me a story


Paying attention – words to be said – put on desk













Would I Seek You Out to Date if We Were Single Again and Didn’t Have Kids?

She asked her husband and then answered it herself, “No”, crying bitterly.

The couple had come in to address communication issues. They were 11 years married with 2 children. They had recently realized how isolated they are from each other due to their many family and work life responsibilities. As they began talking, insights like the one above began to surface.

It is sad to see this, much less be in it.  Two people….. incredibly busy working, being good parents (a.k.a., bus drivers, PTA members, etc.), attending to family, keeping up a home, etc….only to one day suddenly realize that that the one person you thought was your best friend/lover/partner, etc. is more like a roommate and a roommate that you don’t really know!

After the tears stopped falling, they looked at me. You could see on their faces the expression of a horrible judgment…. “I picked the wrong person to marry (because obviously, had I picked the right person, my answer would have been “Yes”).

I reassured them stating that I had witnessed this before….these questions, these judgments…..in other relationships. I asked them to take a deep breath and to try and listen.

I share with them that while their conclusions may be right (They may not pick each other today if both were single and just met.), that wouldn’t be because they were “wrong” for each other when they did meet and marry. Scientists tell us that every 5 years, every cell in our body regenerates itself at least once. This means we become a completely new and different person every five years. And as such, we develop new interests, preferences, perspectives, etc.

So, while it would be quite natural then, that you may not pick your partner now to date, as opposed to 5, 10 or 15 years ago, this does not mean that you can’t have a successful relationship today with that partner you picked 5, 10 or 15 years ago. It does mean however, that you have to work at creating that successful relationship today by looking for common interests, preferences, etc., in your partner ….and so does everyone else that is in a successful and happy relationship.  Experts in marriage tell us that one of the secrets of successful long-term marriages is the awareness that we continually change and grown and as such, you must continually “get to know” your partner.

Something to think about….

You Are Not…….Alone

This is an article from the June 2018 edition of Men’s Health.  It speaks to male child sex abuse and chronicles one man’s recovery from such.  Enlightening.


Men’s Health – June 2018

“One in 20 boys will suffer sexual abuse.  The author, who asked to remain anonymous, wasn’t yet a teenager when he was raped by his stepmother.  He’s still dealing with the psychological fallout as an adult.”


The first time I was sexually abused by my stepmother, I was 12.  She and my father weren’t married yet, but we were all staying together in Boca Raton that night.  We’d just gotten home from dinner at a tropical-themed restaurant, Bimini Bob’s, where I’d earned high score at the ring-toss game while my dad watched, drinking more light beers than usual.  I knew it would be hard for him to drive home, so from the backseat of our SUV, I leaned forward to turn down the radio to help him focus on the road.

As soon as we got home, my dad went upstairs, leaving me alone in the kitchen with her.  We talked about my ring-toss skills; she was probably humoring me.  Then in her early 40s, she was a competitive person, a successful businesswoman.  She leaned against the Formica island, her sandy blond hair done up in a bulbous, frizzy ball.

As the conversation petered out, she hugged me – a stronger one than usual.  Naturally, I hugged her back.  Then, after a few seconds, she leaned out, looked at me, and kissed me on the mouth.  Her alcoholic breath mingled with her perfume, suffocating me.  The house was dead quiet.  I had no idea what to do.  This was my first kiss.  My arms were clenched, frozen by my side, so she grabbed my hands and placed them on her chest, moving them around.  She asked if I liked it.  I don’t remember what I said.

She and I didn’t speak about what happened, but it kept happening.  Every few weeks, she would find me alone, make out with me, encourage me, and then chastise me.  If your dad ever found out, she’d say, he’d be furious.  It was clear this was somehow my fault, though I barely comprehended the reality of it all.

A few months after that first encounter, she took my virginity.  It was nighttime at a shabby rental house in the Keys, too early to sleep, but she and my dad had been drinking and went to bed early.

Later I heard a sound outside my room, so I opened the door to see what was going on.  I saw her standing in the doorway of the master bedroom.  My siblings weren’t around.  She walked up to me and started kissing me, and then escalated things:  She reached into my pajamas and took out my penis.  It was the first time she’d touched my genitals, and I didn’t understand what was going on.  She pulled aside her shorts, and, still standing in the hallway, placed my erection inside her.  I stood there, feeling cold and bizarre.  There was nothing intimate about it; I don’t remember ejaculating.  After she’d had enough, I durned and silently walked back to my room, utterly ashamed.

This continued for three years.  Out in public, she was my dad’s cool, hip girlfriend.  She played up to me and my siblings, whispering that she was on our side, that she could convince our dad to do whatever we wanted.  She was fun.  She wanted us to believe she was our friend.

My life went into a tailspin.  I didn’t realize it at the time, but I’d slipped headfirst into depression.  I couldn’t focus on school and sometimes skipped whole days to stay at my biological mom’s house and work on computer projects.  As my grades plummeted, I blamed myself for being stupid.  By the end of seventh grade, my teachers considered holding me back.

When I was in my early teens, my stepmother was abusing me several times a year, usually when we were alone in the Keys.  I began avoiding these trips as much as I could.  By the time I turned 15, around the time she became my stepmother, I started to understand more of what was happening.

That’s when she began worrying about getting caught, and the brutality of our relationship evolved from sexual abuse to mental abuse, mean pranks, and manipulation.  When I bought new clothes for my job, she “accidentally” poured bleach on them; she once backed into my car in the driveway and claimed she hadn’t seen it.  She’d withhold money, her vise grip so strong on my dad’s funds that while I was in college, he had to take me grocery shopping in secret.  When I graduated, she handed me a card from the two of them with cash inside.  Then she told me my car payment was due and grabbed the money back within seconds.

She justified all this to my father as “tough love,” belittling my anxiety and stress and saying I needed to be more of a man.

I wanted nothing to do with her, but I couldn’t bring myself to tell anyone – not my father, not my siblings, not my school friends, not my biological mother.

I learned to compartmentalize at an early age and have been leading a double life ever since she first kissed me:  In public, I was always a normal boy, popular but shy with girls, into film-making and computers.  Then, some nights, I believed myself a kind of adult, hiding a cataclysmic secret.  I couldn’t make sense of it; I couldn’t even acknowledge it.

The mere thought of it paralyzed me with fear.

One in 20 boys in the United States will be sexually assaulted by age 18, according to the Journal of Adolescent Health.  Research from 1990 to 1997 put estimates much higher, with as many as one in six boys being the victim of sexual abuse by the time they reach adulthood.  In fact, the preeminent outreach group for sexually abused boys in the United States is called “1in16.”  Yet the problem remains “under-reported, under-recognized, and under-treated,” according to JAMA.

Behavioral problems resulting from sexual abuse are immediately apparent.  Victims are more likely to be aggressive, abuse drugs and/or alcohol, and attempt suicide.  Males are uniquely conflicted and less likely to speak out than females are.  If the abuser is male, the victim man not report the activity for fear of being identified as homosexual.  If the abuser is female, the victim may fear that the abuse will be culturally excused and that he should feel “privileged,” not violated.  Men are crudely congratulated for their trauma, as summarized in a Chicago Tribune headline from 2015:  “Victims of sexual abuse: Girls get our sympathy; boys get high-fives.”

When I began researching my trauma, I was frustrated by the lack of resources.  But the few studies that do exist are illuminating.  Researchers behind a 2008 study in the Journal of Counseling Psychology, for example, say they had a much harder time getting men to volunteer for their research on sexual abuse than women.  The stories from the 16 men who did participate all felt instantly familiar to me.  The men compartmentalized their memories, didn’t know how to tell their families, wanted to just forget it, or said remaining silent seemed more “masculine.”

In my case, I shoved my adolescent memories aside as soon as I moved out of the house.  I became an editor at a national news company and was staunchly independent, refusing help so I could keep control over my life.  I enjoyed healthy romantic relationships that lasted years, but I never allowed my partners to be my equals.  I insisted on dominating the dynamic; in retrospect, it’s clear that I never wanted anyone to have control over me.  And as soon as those relationships started to feel too serious, I found an excuse to tear it all down and start again with someone new.

I rarely took time to think about my trauma.  But sometimes it still crept up, like the time we reported on the story of Debra Lafave, a female teacher who had sexual intercourse with a 14-year-old male student in the summer of 2004.  In the editing room, one of my colleagues turned to me with a smirk: “Lucky kid.”

This mentality seeps into our legal system, which is being increasingly recognized as ill-equipped to deal with male victims of sexual assault.  Abusive female teachers, for example, frequently receive lighter sentences, while young male victims see smaller awards in court, according to L.A.-based lawyer David Ring, who has defended clients of both genders in hundreds of sexual assault trials.  Likewise, male pedophiles will be jailed exponentially longer than female pedophiles, who sometimes avoid prison altogether.  (Having pleaded guilty to two counts of lewd and lascivious behavior, Lafave was sentenced to three years of house arrest, followed by a seven-year probation).

After all, some argue, what boy hasn’t fantasized about his female teacher?  How can it be called rape if you ejaculated?  What if the boy bragged about the experience to his friends?  These questions, frankly, are irrelevant to sexual trauma – especially sexual trauma involving a minor.

Some children show symptoms immediately, but others appear asymptomatic until adulthood.  For me, both turned out to be true.  Despite my middle-school depression, I pulled my life together in my late teens.  But I gravitated toward extremes.  I never did drugs – as many abuse victims do – but instead chased adrenaline highs.  None of them lasted.  Once, I went on a flight with a stunt pilot; we flew straight into the air, and then the pilot killed the engine.  The plane barreled straight for the ground – his idea of a prank.  After we landed, he looked surprised and said, “I’ve never seen anyone son calm.”

I traveled to the Himalayas to attempt a tough trek but developed a lung condition that cut my trip short.  That threw me into a depression like no other.  All I wanted from my long-term girlfriend was comfort and condolence.  But when she told me she felt abandoned during my trip, we fought instead of talking it through.  I broke our relationship off cold.

More than two decades after my stepmother first molested my, I started psychotherapy.  My periods of depression had grown more intense and more frequent, and my breakups showed that I had a clear pattern of being unable to accept intimacy.  I didn’t mention my abuse with my therapist for almost a year, even though he repeatedly asked me why I hated my stepmother, why I’d distanced myself from my family.

Then I blurted it all out.

It was the first time I’d fully revived the painful memories out loud.  I told him that she raped me dozens of times.  I flooded the room with years of shame and embarrassment, crying tears of fury and regret.  My therapist hugged me and told me a familiar line:  “It’s not your fault.”

When I stepped out onto the busy city street that afternoon, I could barely keep myself together.  I felt naked and alone, shivering in that landscape of glass and steel.  I hailed a cab to a friend’s apartment, where we cried for hours on her couch.  But I wasn’t ready to commit to a real solution.  As the authors of the 2008 Journal of Counseling Psychology study write, “Depending on personal readiness, initial disclosures may be tentative and incomplete.”

I was so overwhelmed by my first admission that I mostly avoided it afterward.  Talking about it made it real.  I spoke to my therapist for another year after that, switching to phone sessions after I moved to another big city.  But when I quit therapy, I barely told anyone else.  I tried to tell my sister the next time I flew down to Florida, but when we met for lunch and she asked me what was new in my life, I froze up.  I just couldn’t do it.

“Untreated sexual abuse is a time bomb,” says Padma Moyer, M.S.W., L.C.S.W., a Bay Area therapist who works with adult survivors of incest.  “Sometimes it ticks so quietly that even the victim doesn’t hear it.  But if it isn’t defused, eventually there’s an explosion.”

My explosion came in late 2017.  I’d been seeing a woman for a year, and I was convinced I was going to marry her.  She was, of all things, a psychiatrist; I felt I could open up to her in ways I never could before.  I was the happiest I’d ever been, and our romance inflated my entire sense of self.  We developed pet names for each other, and she became “my person.”  We giddily invested in a life together, planning for kids and marriage, even planning a date for our formal engagement later that year.

But then my career took a turn for the worse: A big pitch was rejected, a reliable client scrapped my ad campaign, and I had a falling out with my business partner.  So I did what I have always done when things go wrong: I sabotaged my life.  While out of town on business, I met with a woman I considered a friend.  I don’t know why, but after drinks we went back to the house where I was staying.  Again, I was daring myself with self-destruction.  I’d never cheated before, and after 30 seconds of sex (we never even kissed) a panicked instinct flooded over me.  I stopped, pulled up my pants, and kicker her out.

I assumed I could hid the lapse from my girlfriend.  Living with a dark looming secret felt natural.  But I did share an abbreviated version with her.  We were working it out.  She passed her boards a month later, and I threw her a huge celebration party.  She told me she’d “fallen in love with me all over again” – a line I’ll never forget.  But the very next day, my girlfriend talked on the phone with the other woman.  I had left for a work trip when my girlfriend called to say she was leaving me.  I bumped up my flight, but by the time I returned to my apartment, every trace of her had vanished.

The months following our breakup, I had a breakdown and couldn’t function.  I barely left the house.  But eventually I realized that this depression could be a catalyst for profound change.  I somehow found the strength to visit a new therapist – two-hour sessions, three times a week.  I plunged into books and articles about relationships, affairs, and sexual abuse against men.

In our post-Weinstein era, it’s critical to include abused men in the conversation.  If we don’t, we risk deepening the alienation of those who’ve quietly suffered for decades because our pain is ignored, misunderstood, or laughed off.

I’ve finally begun talking about all this with my family and friends, while identifying my own triggers for self-sabotage.  I am most comforted by the understanding of my truest friends, even those I’d lost touch with or spurned in the past.  The solidarity of others who have suffered in similar ways assured me that speaking up was the most healing thing I could do.  I’ve relied on the love of my family members, for whom this has been uniquely difficult – especially my mother.  She has been wonderful, respecting my privacy and offering support.  I’m deconstructing my own walls into manageable hurdles, and today I feel closer to almost everyone in my family.

The exception has been my father.

A week after my breakdown, I made the hardest phone call I’ve ever had to make.  Crying uncontrollably, I told him he needed to come to New York immediately.  I didn’t say why.  We rode to my therapist’s office in quiet, uncomfortable tension.  It took all my strength to not spill everything out and cry.

Once we stepped into the therapist’s office, I just threw everything out there at my dad: How his wife took my virginity, how she subjected me to constant abuse and manipulation, how she traumatized me sexually and emotionally.

My dad sat there, stunned.  He kept repeating the same phrase: “My world is turned upside down right now.”  Then it was his turn: His marriage had been unraveling for a decade.  She didn’t respect him.  They often slept in separate bedrooms, living separate lives under a shared roof.  He hadn’t loved her for years and was thinking of divorce.  This revelation, he said, might finally push him there.

Relief overwhelmed my anxiety.  Finally there might be justice – not the kind of justice that can be had in a courtroom, but at least my family would have a chance at healing.  As he flew back home, I focused on getting my life back in order, ready to recover from my trauma and begin anew with my father.

Unfortunately, it didn’t happen that way.  My dad separated from my stepmother after she moved out, but that was a far as it got.  At 69, terrified of loneliness and change, he went to work, frequented his bars, and came home each night more anxious and afraid.  My stepmother claimed she felt bad about my breakdown but never admitted to being a pedophile (although she did consult a criminal defense attorney).  She also helps with my dad’s business, so it was even harder for him to untangle her from his life.  By January of this year, she’d moved back in with my dad.  As she’d always bragged, she can manipulate my dad into anything.

The last time I saw my dad was in February.  He agreed to sit down with me, my sister, and her therapist.  My siblings and I had agreed to give him an ultimatum:  We loved him, but we couldn’t have his wife in our lives.  Until he changed that, we would cut off all contact with them both.  My dad suggested we could still see him – for his upcoming 70th birthday, or for holidays.  “Why can’t she go away for a few days and you come over?” he asked.  “You wouldn’t have to see her.”  I told him that was impossible, and by the meeting’s end it was clear he’d chosen her over us.  From his perspective, I realized, this whole ordeal was less about me or his wife than about him.  We shared an awkward hug, and I left the room.  It honestly felt like I said goodbye to my father.

When I was growing up, my family lived in discrete boxes of depression and guilt, ignorance, and abuse.  My father prefers it that way – he will continue compartmentalizing his life, shutting his eyes to the tsunami crashing around him.  But I can’t live like that.  I’ve spent too long pretending that problems don’t exist.  I have to be open about my trauma, and I want to help others do the same.  After two decades, I have to believe what I’ve never believed before – that despite it all, this was not my fault, and that, like every victim too afraid to speak out, I am not alone.


“I Believe God Brought Us Together”

Recently, someone told me this about how they met their partner. “I believe God brought us together.” I began thinking about this.

I am not an expert in religion or spiritual matters. I am not a Christian counselor. Further, I do not wish to offend anyone’s beliefs in God .I was raised in a devote Catholic home, attending church every Sunday. I have one brother that is a priest and another that is a deacon. Over the years, I believe I have matured in my belief in God and how God is present in our lives

I have heard that phrase (“God brought us together.”) before in my therapy office and I have said it before about my own life. I believe the person who said this recently believes what they said and this needs to be respected.

With that having been said however……… it occurred to me that such a phrase puts the speaker in a terrible personal/spiritual bind. If a person seriously believes God brought them together but they were to later decide to divorce, this would be essentially going against God’s will, which most people don’t want to do.  On the other hand, if they were to believe divorce is best due to insurmountable differences but further believed they had to stay together because their relationship was “God’s will”, this could be the death of both of them and their relationship, spiritually and psychologically.  Ever seen a couple in a “dead” relationship?

But, one could ask, what if it were God’s will that the relationship end? This thought further illuminates to my overall point…namely that one needs to be careful and think further about what one attributes to God or what is God’s will.

I do not believe God ordains who I am to marry or do in my life. But I do believe God expects me to treat others with respect (a.k.a. love one another) and do the best that I can in any situation I find myself in or put myself in; this includes any promises I make, including marriage. How then can I justify divorcing earlier in my life. I justify it by believing that I tried my best to make the relationship work and eventually came to believe it was not best that I be married. I keep that in mind as I go forth in life and enter new relationships and I hold myself ready to face God’s judgment about my decision to divorce previously.

Something to think about when it come to thinking about your religious beliefs and hard choices we face in our lives….like whether to divorce or not.





She Asked for a Divorce

The following is an email discussion I had with a woman contemplating divorcing her husband.  At the time of our dialogue, she had just, in session, announced to her husband, directly, that she wanted to divorce.

This is a wonderful example of why it is difficult for women to ask for a divorce, “…it kills me to see the hurt in his eyes”.  Note her thoughts being “all over the place”.  Finally, look at my last response to her, specifically my challenge for her to take seriously her thought processes DESPITE what others would say.



As you know I have gotten off my chest that I do indeed want a divorce.

Though last night when we got home Bill begged me not to be done to give him one last chance. Even after I have told him I don’t think there is anything he can do now to change my mind. He really is hurt by me wanting a divorce. I know that he has hurt me for so long but it kills me to see the hurt in his eyes. I am having so many emotions right now that I can’t hardly think straight. I find myself using work to get a break from my mind these days. I know the choice I have made is not an easy one, or maybe it should be easy if it is really meant to be that way. I am completely all over the place with my thoughts, but it’s really hard for me to have a clear thought process right now. Is that normal?

Along with all this he has asked me to take a trip with him this weekend.

Would that be leading him in the wrong direction by going on a trip with him?

Please help me try to understand all my thoughts.





Real quick….I’m in between people.

It is normal….jumping from topic to topic. This is traditionally the most stressful situation most humans face. So, if you are confused, have a hard time concentrating or go from one thought/feeling to the opposite thought/feeling….know that that is normal.

Good point….or good awareness….that you have hurt a lot at his hands during the marriage AND that it hurts you that you’re divorcing him is killing him. That does not mean you are crazy or mean, that means you are human and empathetic…..it doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t divorce him however.

The invitation to the trip is I think a way of wooing you back to him.  Go at your risk. The same is true of having sex with him. The more you do, the more it will make divorcing difficult.  He is hurting and I am and I know you are sorry about that. That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t divorce him.

Need to go.  If you have more questions, please email me.  These are good awareness’s on your part!



I do have one last question… Am I crazy for asking for a divorce? Bill claims this is me taking the easy way out….  I don’t see it that way due to the fact that we have been trying counseling sessions for at least two years and we are still needing to continue these sessions.  At what point is it OK to just say your opinion no longer matters.

He also is trying to bring our children into this by saying they are going to have an awful life if we separate, I feel very differently from that but he been there and I never have.



Responding to your question, “Am I crazy for asking for a divorce?”…..

You must answer that for yourself. I say this for two reasons. First, I’ll give you my answer AFTER you give me your answer. Second, this is a more serious question than you think.  If you think you are crazy, then you are crazy…..regardless of what you do or say.  I have worked with people who believed they were, for example, the “black sheep” of their family. Everything they considered doing or thinking they looked at as if it were something a black sheep did or does AND they often only did things that were extreme or inappropriate or disruptive….the things that they thought only a black sheep would do. So, if you think you are crazy, you will probably not take this decision as seriously as you would if you thought you were of serious and stable temperament and if things turn out badly, you could say to yourself that you did such because you thought you were crazy and you consequently did crazy things.

So….are you crazy?

I will answer this question only after you tell me your answer to this question.

In regards to, “At what point is it OK to just say your opinion no longer matters?” I am assuming that what you are saying is “At what point is it ok to just say Bill’s opinion no longer matters?”  That is what seriously considering getting a divorce is all about…..deciding that the other persons opinion doesn’t matter and you want to live your life how you see fit.  YOU must decide that….WHEN his opinion doesn’t matter. You wouldn’t be considering divorce if you hadn’t already been thinking about IF his opinion matters or WHEN it doesn’t matter. Most decide it doesn’t matter when they see a history in the relationship that reflects going along with the other person’s opinion has lead repeatedly to bad consequences for the person consistently, that this pattern will continue in the future and that they know that that to do such in the future would be bad for them/the kids involved. You must also remember that, if you decide to divorce and he doesn’t want to divorce, he will not agree with your opinion and you will have to pursue this course of action AGAINST THE ADVICE of him. Most people, especially women, are not comfortable doing such. The more you are aware that you will have to do that as you pursue your divorce, the less this aspect will de-rail you.

Please email me again if you have further questions.



How Couples Can Rebuild Trust after an Affair

Below is a link to a TED TALK by Ester Perel.  She speaks of trust in relationships and more specifically the impact of an affair on trust in a marriage.

Really worth a listen…